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So no more precalc for the summer.
Today work was amazing. It was raining when I got there and we all sat inside and talked and hung out and did all that kind of stuff. and then around One or so we all decided to go out to the point and swim and do flips and stuff but when i got there it was too cold so me and Kate weren't going to go swimming. All the guys decided to be idiots and try and do really dangerous stunts and stuff and at some point they were all whining in pain. And then they decided to be loosers and get us wet and Nick threw me into the water and others dumped water on Kate's head and pulled her in anyway. So that kind of sucked but it was all in good fun. And then i was sitting on the railing talking to Kate and saying "I can't believe im getting payed to do this.." And basically me and her hung out the entire time avoiding the rest of the ever so funny yet never cease to be idiots cluster of guys. And then she gave me a ride home. And thats how i made my days pay. I would NEVER give up this job. Its the best summer job in larchmont.
But now i think im going to start the perge.
I'm attempting to sake out every corner of my room and make it sparkle.
Every summer i do this. Its that time again.
..right after i visit american eagle dot com because im compleatly obsessed with that store..
--right.ps. my speakers on this computer aren'r working!! its bugging the fuck out of me!
ps matt if your reading this ive come to agree that your hi-fi speakers are better than anything.

so an hour untill i have to deal with fucking clowns.
umm
no im serious.
clowns with white faces and stupid curly hair.
im fucking terrified of clowns.
ugh why do they make me do this.
stupid manor beach day..
IM FUCKING FACE PAINTING WITH THE FUCKING CLOWNS.

im really tired.
today was pretty base.
i just feel like today was nothing but a hundred times of me saying "no".
but, whatever.
Summers good.
i just wish Becca would get back sooner.
five days left or something..
where is my pina colada?

So in math class today i decided that i can create three groups out of my friends.
The first group are those who i don't want to date but want to date me.
The second group are those who i would date but dont want to date me.
And the third group are those who i could call my best friends.

Its almost annoying how that works out.
And after i came up with that. I almost passed out from extream heat. The End.

so my mom said she wouldnt mind or whatever if i did pretty much anything to my hair. i think ill take advantage of that.. im in need of a physical change. any way. this summer is compleatly amazing so far..knock on wood.  gosh  that was short but i have to eat birthday dinner. oh dear. just kidding yay.

pacman is soo amusing

So I was reading old enteries and they were really funny and i read all the comments that were left after that enterie went of my recent enteries page and i never saw. And they were kinda cool too. I also found this entrie about what i wanted to accomplish last summer and i thought id look to see what actually happend.:
here are my goals for this summer in random order:

-make lots of money lifeguarding It was decent.
-convince mom to take me to fells point if not oc. Didn't happen
-have summer fling More like multiple ones, but whos counting? that didnt last long at all so i dont think that they count as flings. and ps i only told one person about it.
-hang with at least one person every night Uhh no. But i hung out a lot
-buy all the cd's ive been wanting Still want them
-do something really awsome with erics band Now i have my own band
-hook up with a guy i dont know, who is around my age, seems reasonably nice, and probably wont ever see again. No, and what was i thinking?
-watch some episodes of summerland HAHAHA OFCOURSE
-loose some weight Yea, a bit. I fit in my old jeans!!
-do something unbelieveably crazy at least once a week Well maybe not every week.
-have matt come out side with me when its pouring Never had the oppertunity
-scream at the top of my loungs so i cant talk very well YES YES I DID THAT
-buy crazy ass nail polish Yep
-watch lots of movies Not lots
-find some really great band that no ones heard of Matt knows every single band, therefore making it impossible to do so
-do something bad ass..lol, who me? matt a little help here?..just kidding No comment
-regain james' bff title Oh yea
-take piano lessons mhmm
-be happy every day no cant say that was accomplished, thats a good thing too. im not sure its healthy to be happy all the time
-have an ultimate BLAST!! Yes over all, totally amazing.

Aaww I'm so excited!! Meiko thinks she's comming this witer and Im actually gonna be home for x-mas this winter and Ryoko thinks she's comming in March!! I haven't seen them since foreverago!! AHHHH! This is the best day ever!!!

Stomp was crazzy fun. lOvE!! Becca and I were so hyper the entire night!! Yay! For st marks place!! Went on my anual pumpkin pick in connetcut with becca. And the same maxican restaurant.

A little pissey. BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE NEED TO FREAKING GET OVER SHIT.  AND NOT TAKE A MILLION YEARS TO DO IT!. That is directed at a lot of people. the end.

Monday is my birthday, perchance permit on tuesday?

Carving pumpkins tonight.
Ooo yay Eric got online I love him.
Peace Out, A Town Down.

ohmyfuckingfreakingfreakingawsomefreakingawsomeholeyshitgoodness!! so me and eric have our first.....GIG!! ahhhghhhh! im flipin out yo!! its like really happening!! were like playing for people like in a room with doors and windows and a floor yea!! a floor!! were gonna be like background music in this gallery but who the fuck cares doesnt fucking matter!!! were playing in NYC and its gonna be so sweet!! aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahah yayayayayay!! UGH I LOVE MUSIC!! YEEAUH!!

UGH THAT IS IT!! I'VA HAD IT WITH EVERYONE TELLING ME THAT MUSIC ISNT IMPORTANT.. GODAMNIT! THE ONLY ONE WHO SEEMS TO SUPPORT MY DECISION IS MY DAD. IM GOING TO DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT YOU PEOPLE SAY IM GOING TO DO IT AND IM GOING TO PROVE YOU ALL WRONG. SO PLEASE STOP TELLING ME THAT ITS SOMETHING I PROBABLY WONT BE ABLE TO DO. DO YOU PEOPLE KNOW HOW MANY MUSICIANS ARE OUT THERE?! THERES NO REASON I CANT BE IN A BAND TOO! i know i can do it its all i want to do. you know how many hours i spend practicing music of famous and infamous bands? and writing songs? a whole freaking lot. hours and hours. its the only thing that makes me happy. y dont you people have confidence in me? but know what, doesnt matter that you dont, ill just use the lack of confidence from others to help me.
now if you will exuse me, i have a song to write.

work is rough. im so ready for school. dont quote me on that when i say school sux. and im a fucking nervous wreck for the 'saturday afternoon test'. ugh. saturday morning, but whatever. no need to split hairs. im purging my room. going to. now im going to eat. im HUNgrY! the effing schedual need to come now. now. now. now. now. now.

life is shweet.

and i think im gonna watch the notebook soon.

so i died robins hair darker and reder. and it looks absoulutly fab. if i do say so my self. bravo zoe bravo. im deffinatly doing something to it right before school. something black like black underlayer and other random thick streaks of black. but im not sure if i can do that myself. ill go ask my guy castro at gjyokos. im outrageously tired. i feel like eating a bagle. but id never do that right now. i have gimungous baggs under my eyes. oh my, fucking god. i died. that'ill do pig, that'ill do.

as of now, my life couldn't be anybetter at this point in time.
my friends are amazing. and one in particular who i'm going to see today.
robin will arive here on friday. and i have the whole week planned out. i love her so much shes like a sister. we are exactly 13 days appart. cool? yes, yes, i think so too.
pluss the fact that i just depositied another 500$ paycheck, could do something to upgrade my mood too.
ive got the most amazing friends in the world. <3

work has been fun. everyone is so awsome. except for the other two girls that dont say shit. one of them whos name quincidentally happens to be zoe spelled zoe without the two dots and last name also begins with S. now what are the odds of that i wonder? and when were bored. man we fix it. its so much fun. i love everyone there. lol even nick is okay, yeah i said it. i learn to forgive and forget. but ive learned that seaweed is good for absolutly nothing. its just fucking disgusting. and i hate it when old ladies come literally 15 minutes before official closing time and demand for us to stop closing on a rainy overcast day and want to go for a quick swim and when everything is already shut down and the kyacks are put away so i have to stand on the shower stairs and watch this woman swim while erin unlocks everything to go turn the water on so she can take a fucking shower when she gets out. AND no one has been there for two previous hours. i want to kill her!! and here's my convienent quote: STRESS-
Created when one's mind overides the body's basic desire to choke the living shit out of some Asshole who desperately needs it. godamnit. hey im talking to bex and shes in arizona. keeulll. i need shoes. im in the midst of a shoe fedish. me and bex are gonna go shoe shopping. it will be fun. aaite peeps. nufs enough. peace yo.

i like the rain.
yesterday i was pushed around in a shoping cart. it was rather fun.
im officially cirtified, yay, celebrate.